Snacking

Snacks.
Are my enemy.
Healthy snacks. Not so healthy snacks. Outright unhealthy snacks.

Each time I buy something snackable, I somehow manage to convince myself that this time around, I will not eat the whole thing at once.
'These crackers', I say, 'these crackers will go incredibly well with my soup'.
That's what I said yesterday for example. When I looked at the caloric value of the crackers, I realised I'd have to eat them with CAUTION, as they're not only incredibly delicious, but also incredibly high in calories.
Same goes with dried mangoes. I love them, and I everytime I buy them I vow that I will not eat the whole 100g at once, because it's quite high in sugar and calories. And each time, to desire to just chew and chew and chew until everything's been eaten.

Anyway, something i need to get under control.

On another note, I've been trying to find a way to work some moving into my schedule. I have a membership for the gym, but exams are coming up and looking back at the exam period last semester I realise that I won't be using the gym. The gym only opens at 10am (I know, right) - by then I've already been studying for 2 hours. If I dare to stop studying to go to the gym, it'll take me too long to get my ass back into studying mode. What I need is movement before I start studying - after I get up.
So i've been contemplating C25K for a whole while now, and I've been reading on other blogs how much people weighed when they started. You see I'm scared I'll tear, rip or break something inside me, considering that my joints and bones are carrying an awful lot of weight. But I'm somewhere around 110kg right now, and I figure it's time to try.
I've still been putting it off, because I've been telling myself that I still haven't found a good spot for running yet... I live in the city centre, and like the typical self-conscious fat person I am, I'm terrified of running anywhere other humans are gathering.
Today I went for a walk however to a park a bit outside, and I think it might be a good location.
It takes me about 20 minutes to walk there, then I can run/walk/trip around the lake, and walk back all sweaty.

I have decided that tomorrow morning I shall start Week 1 of C25K and if it kills me. I'm gonna get up early in the hopes that noone will be up and running (literally) at that time of the day (6.30am is the plan) on a Sunday. We shall see. If there are people I guess I'll just have to put my blinders on.
I was equally terrified to go to the gym for the first time, and it turned out not to be a problem either. Noone threw stones at me or anything of the likes. I shall prevail :)

So long,
Sarah