Yesterday was a crappy day.
It's hard to explain how it happened. I weighed myself in the morning. I saw a number I really liked. My scale's however the most unreliable thing ever, mostly due to the uneven floors in the place I live in.
Seeing I was making progress made me sabotage myself. While the day started off fine, lunch was disatrous and dinner even more so.
While saying that, disastrous these days is still not as bad as it used to be. I used to drink 4 lattes a day, accompanied by a load of oreos or reese's cups, having dinner that could've fed 3 people.
Yesterday I lost control. I lost sight of what it is I'm working towards.
I'm not worried though, because today will be better.
In terms of C25K I'm behind schedule. It's ridiculous to say that I can't make time for running 20 minutes a day, but that's my excuse. I'm swamped with work, and while running doesn't take long, getting to a place where I can run where noone sees me takes a lot of time. I need to get past my anxiety.
But I'm doing things at my own pace. Whatever. The coming weeks will be stressful ones. In terms of school-related things, exam period last semester was the worst 6 weeks of my life so far. And that's what I'm facing now. My weight bounced back up during exams last semester, so I'm going to focus on my eating. Keeping that under control is key to this whole journey and I have to be able to do it - even when I'm under stress.
Hang in there, Sarah! C25K took me ages (and in the end, I gave up on it and am just running until I can't run any more). But also remember that perhaps maintaining during this really stressful exam time might be a victory as well. You've already marked at how your bad days aren't as bad as they used to be. Take the victories where you can get them!
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